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judicialassistant) wrote2021-12-03 08:17 pm
judicialassistant) wrote2021-12-03 08:17 pm
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journal excerpt [ic] (1) 🌸 kazuma
[ November - December 2021. Notebook (usually) hidden beneath Susato's bed.
As of early December, the journal is in ashes somewhere within the soot and debris of Kazuma's fireplace. ]
What Kazuma-sama hides?
??? Notes I have decided to jot down to organize my thoughts, which may mean nothing, or everything.
When talking about what Mr Sholmes did, went out of his way to ensure I knew he never intended to kill anyone. When I told him that he's said as much, that I probably could have figured it out, even if he hadn't--he had a heavy look on his face. He said that if it had happened, if he had killed Gregson, however justifiable, it would be his fault.
Heard a similar disruption in his heartbeat when speaking about a pub he managed in a previous life. Spoke quite animatedly about various patrons with 76 until the owner was mentioned, someone they just called "Hyde." Suddenly became very tight-lipped.
It's possible he just didn't like the guy. Something more?
Note: Ask father about Jekyll and Hyde story. May be related, since it is a tale they were "restoring."
Wish Reverein had a library.
While Kazuma-sama was... otherwise occupied, in the forest, 76 told me something important. He revealed to me how he got through to him, when the Noctaere took hold, back when Lord van Zieks arrived.
Told me that I should remind him of what he means to me, that he matters to me, no matter what. Even if he doesn't think he deserves it, even he's afraid I'll somehow see him in a different way, after what he's done...
But what? And why? Why should he feel that way?
I think Kazuma-sama has done something terrible, and there are few things I can think of that would make him this ashamed or afraid. So now I have until he returns to find a way to show him that doesn't matter. No pressure?
x/xx
I found the most gorgeous ring in Starlight Memories today. It looks so much like his.
Those women still scare me, but they want me to work for an entire day if I want the ring, so I suppose I must do what I must do.
x/xx
I got the ring! I don't know if this is the right thing to do. I don't think Mr Naruhodo, or even my father can course-correct my actions here. But they say it will expand or shrink as needed to fit him.
I should just wait until he returns, but I think I will wrap it and leave it as his doorstep.
As of early December, the journal is in ashes somewhere within the soot and debris of Kazuma's fireplace. ]
What Kazuma-sama hides?
??? Notes I have decided to jot down to organize my thoughts, which may mean nothing, or everything.
When talking about what Mr Sholmes did, went out of his way to ensure I knew he never intended to kill anyone. When I told him that he's said as much, that I probably could have figured it out, even if he hadn't--he had a heavy look on his face. He said that if it had happened, if he had killed Gregson, however justifiable, it would be his fault.
Heard a similar disruption in his heartbeat when speaking about a pub he managed in a previous life. Spoke quite animatedly about various patrons with 76 until the owner was mentioned, someone they just called "Hyde." Suddenly became very tight-lipped.
Note: Ask father about Jekyll and Hyde story. May be related, since it is a tale they were "restoring."
Wish Reverein had a library.
While Kazuma-sama was... otherwise occupied, in the forest, 76 told me something important. He revealed to me how he got through to him, when the Noctaere took hold, back when Lord van Zieks arrived.
Told me that I should remind him of what he means to me, that he matters to me, no matter what. Even if he doesn't think he deserves it, even he's afraid I'll somehow see him in a different way, after what he's done...
But what? And why? Why should he feel that way?
I think Kazuma-sama has done something terrible, and there are few things I can think of that would make him this ashamed or afraid. So now I have until he returns to find a way to show him that doesn't matter. No pressure?
x/xx
I found the most gorgeous ring in Starlight Memories today. It looks so much like his.
Those women still scare me, but they want me to work for an entire day if I want the ring, so I suppose I must do what I must do.
x/xx
I got the ring! I don't know if this is the right thing to do. I don't think Mr Naruhodo, or even my father can course-correct my actions here. But they say it will expand or shrink as needed to fit him.
I should just wait until he returns, but I think I will wrap it and leave it as his doorstep.